Monday, January 26, 2009

Survival (file under Dreams ain’t always easy)

When I left Reservation to join Without Reservation though I was working a ridiculous number of hours I was making enough money to live. Currently I have been working less hours (last week because I was sick) and this week because we are in a period of transition. It is difficult given my current hours to survive. By survive I mean pay my rent, get to and from work, buy cigarettes and groceries. This will change and I will use the next post to explain how. However, I know that if the hours remain what they are I will have to search out a second job so that I can afford to live.

When I moved to without Reservation I was under the impression (as that was what I was assured because I knew I could not live on less than I was making at Reservation) that I would get between forty and fifty hours a week. As it stands I have been lucky to get between thirty five and forty five hours a week. Of course it always appears that the grass is greener and in this case (for the time being) it is. But it would really be difficult for me to get a second job just to meet my survival and continue the level of intensive studying that I have been doing.

But nobody ever said that living your dream was going to be easy. Nor should it be. I have and will always find a way.

Ella Wheeler Wilcox once wrote; “There is no chance, no destiny, no fate, that can circumvent or hinder or control the firm resolve of a determined soul.”

Is there any doubt for any of you that I am not determined? I know that I am and that I will get to where I need to go for myself.

Are you dreaming big and inspired?

A la prochaine

SDM

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